It's Friday! And this is me . . .
Going back to work after Christmas & New Years is the WORST - am I right?
BUT as my husband has had to tell me and remind me everyday this week, be thankful. Thankful to have a job, which allows us to do so many things . . . it clothes us, puts a roof over our head, feeds us and allows us to live.
So I am truly thankful for my job, but I am also thankful because today is FRIDAY and it's officially the WEEKEND!
And I'm particularly excited about todays post, because it's about friendship and friendship is something that I've been especially grateful for since our move here to Texas.
Let me start by going back a few years.
In college I had the BEST group of girlfriends . . .
These girls are the real deal, the best of the best - seriously I LOVE them. Can you tell?
From graduations . . .
To weddings . . .
These are my people. And now we all live far away from each other and just thinking about it makes my heart hurt, because I just wish that we could live in a row of houses right next to each other and raise all of our babies together. #goals
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After graduation we all went on to do our own things - I moved to Florida, because that's where Taylor was in grad school at the time and we wanted to be together. I actually still had another year of school to do, but I transferred online so that I could move and be with Taylor. When I got to Florida I decided to nanny part time, because I figured school would keep me plenty busy the rest of the time.
So I began nannying the two most precious little kiddos for two days a week and then I went to school online.
For a while it seemed like a pretty good setup - it honestly felt like a constant vacation, but I quickly became really lonely and just sad. It was so good to finally be with Taylor after almost a year of long distance dating, but the problem was that I went almost immediately from be surrounded by people, classmates, friends, etc. to just having Taylor. And don't get me wrong, I loved being with Taylor, I mean he was my everything.
But I was with kids two days a week and the rest of the time it was either typically just me or me + Taylor and that was hard.
I wouldn't have dared say this when we were in Florida, but as I have looked back and reflected on my time there I can say with almost certainty that I fell into some level of depression that year and the reason why I wouldn't have admitted it back then is because the thought of that TERRIFIED me.
Depression is one thing that I NEVER thought I would have to deal with, because for people who have known me for a long time will tell you that I'm honestly the happiest, most easy going, goofy person and so when I first began seeing myself lose those qualities, I was scared.
However, I really didn't recognize how genuinely sad I was at the time and I definitely see it more now. While we were there in Florida I was still really happy, I mean I was with Taylor, I got to nanny the sweetest kids and we adored their family, plus we just did a bunch of fun stuff - really the biggest thing for me was friends and I didn't feel like I had my friends there.
Our year in Florida went by pretty quick actually and it was a good year - we had the opportunity to do a ton of fun stuff while we were there. We went up to Disney a few times, drove to Fort Meyers, spent Thanksgiving in Jacksonville - all sorts of good stuff. Plus my girlfriends surprised me by flying down and throwing me a Bachelorette Party - that weekend was the BEST!
We finished our time in Florida and then moved up to Washington State where Taylor accepted a job. Washington was so much better than Florida - we had Taylor's whole family up there all within 45 minutes of us plus a lot of of his high school friends were still up there.
I got another job as a nanny, but instead of 20 hours and 2 days a week, this one was 45-50 hours a week and I actually really liked it. Toward the end of our time there it began to wear on me a little bit, but I loved the little girl I nannied for and her sweet, precious family.
During our time in Washington is when I really began to realize what an impact our time in Florida had on me - I genuinely felt as though I lost a big part of myself and since realizing that I have been working to get back to who I was before I left Minnesota.
It's a work in progress - I'm still working to get back to a place of genuine happiness. Which brings me to today, I feel like the last couple of years have been a struggle for me. I feel like I had the best friends in the world and then all of the sudden I didn't have any friends and to be honest it took a major toll on me. But since we've gotten to Texas we, especially me, have been so blessed with friends.
I don't know if I'm trying harder here or what the difference is, but we have been so fortunate to meet so many friends here and all I can say is that I feel so grateful.
We've met friends through Church, work, school and friends of friends - it has been the biggest blessing and I suppose I appreciate it so much more, because I know how hard it is to be in a new place and not feel as though you have friends.
So as cheesy as this may be, I suppose I'm dedicating this post to our sweet friends old + new, especially the new ones who have made this move and transition so much easier on us - thank you! We love you guys BIG!
And if you're not pictured, it's because we don't have a picture yet!!!
Honestly, I haven't felt this happy for a couple years now and it isn't just because of friends, but it does have a lot to do with it. I have always really loved my friends, but I didn't appreciate them or understand the true value of friendship until it wasn't there.
With that being said, be THANKFUL for your friends, those near and far, because they really are irreplaceable and such a blessing.
Here's to old friends, new friends and all of the friendships still to come.
- XO -
I'm Emilee. Twenty-something. Homebody. Believer in a simple + intentional life. Daughter of the King. Living in Austin with my hubs.
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