Yesterday I saw this quote . . .
"Look around you and look inside you. How many people do you think are settling? I will tell you: a hell of a lot of people. People are settling every day into okay relationships and okay jobs and an okay life. And do you know why? Because okay is comfortable. Okay pays the bills and gives a warm bed at night and allows one to go out with co-workers on a Friday evening to enjoy happy hour. But do you know what okay is not? Okay isn’t thrilling, it isn’t passion, it isn’t the reason you get up every day; it isn’t life-changing or unforgettable. Okay is not the reason you go to bed late and wake up early. Okay is not the reason you risk absolutely everything you’ve got just for the smallest chance that something absolutely amazing could happen."
Yesterday I grabbed this quote literally out of a big bucket full of little pieces of paper all with different quotes on them and out of all the different quotes, I chose this one and I couldn't help but to think to myself that this was God's doing, because it was exactly what I needed to hear.
As I was reading the quote all I could think to myself was that I am simply surviving - I'm not thriving. I mean I have a great job, an amazing husband and a cute little apartment and by societies standards I have a pretty good life But then why is it that when I should feel content do I feel like like there is something missing?
This is something that has been troubling me lately and yesterday while I was at work I just started feeling like I needed to leave and get out of the office for a bit - as crazy as it sounds, I felt like my body was full of pressure and I was literally just going to burst . . . I texted my husband and I remember telling him that I wasn't having a great day and before he even texted me back I started another message to him but when I tried to type something I wasn't even sure what I was trying to say. It wasn't really that I wasn't having a good day, it was more that I was just frustrated with where I was in my life for a lack of better terms. My heart was troubled and it was really bothering me. The only way to describe what I was feeling, and I told Taylor this, was that I felt like there was something in me that was just dying to get out.
To be honest, I feel like God came knocking yesterday and put passion for my purpose in my heart and now that it's there, it's all that I can think about it. Whatever it is that God has planned for me, I'm confident that he's working on it right now and that has me feeling a little bit terrified, but more so than that, I feel content - something I didn't feel just 24ish hours ago.
And so while I was outside walking around, I stopped into one of my favorite stores Alter'd State and after wandering around for a few minutes I caught this book out of the corner of my eye . . .
** cue the chills **
I stood there for a good minute in complete awe. Can you blame me?
I felt so at peace in that moment, like God was simply telling me to trust in him.
My mind then wandered back to that quote and all I could think to myself was that this was just the beginning of a passionate life filled with thriving and not just surviving.
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I feel as though we often hear people's stories in the later stages of a God Sized Dream and while I could've kept this to myself and shared this story in maybe 1, 5, 10 or even more years I had a feeling that I was supposed to share it with you now - I'm not sure why, but I feel that God put this in my heart with a purpose to share it with you today.
I have no idea what the future holds or what my purpose is, but I hope that you stay with me and follow me through this journey as I discover my passion and purpose through trusting in God and his plan for me.
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I reached out to the author of this book, Holley Gerth and shared my story with her - I can't say that I expect a response, but I think these stories are worth sharing and in the chance that she does respond I will be sure to share it with you.
In the meantime, I'll be reading her book, You're Made for a God Sized Dream, here soon and if you'd like to join me, you can purchase it here!
" I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. " -Philippians 4:13
- XO -
I'm Emilee. Twenty-something. Homebody. Believer in a simple + intentional life. Daughter of the King. Living in Austin with my hubs.
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